Title: This Is Not The End
Author: Sidney Bell
Page Count: 216
Publication Date: January 11, 2021
Publisher: Carina Press
Themes: Polyamory, Family, Rock Stars,
Content Warning: Addiction, Pregnancy,
A Polyamorous Love Story
Zacary Trevor is the love of Anya Alexander’s life. Their sometimes tumultuous marriage has survived ups, downs, and all the in-betweens. With successful careers, a lovely home, and a beautiful child, domestic bliss is a hard-earned reality for two people whose hedonistic days are in the not-so-distant past. They’re happy. Enter Zac’s best friend, the deeply reserved Cal Keller.
Zac’s friendship with Cal is the foundation of his career and—until Anya and their son came along—the most important relationship of his life. Cal’s a cipher, someone Anya can’t help but gravitate to, even if they don’t always get along. Even more, she’s drawn to the Zac she sees when he’s with Cal—a careful, cautious version of her husband, someone with hidden thoughts and desires kept secret even from her. Inviting Cal into their home, deeper into their life, is a risk.
Thank you to NetGalley and Carina Press for an eARC of this title.
I really enjoyed this story overall. It took me a little bit to get into it. I found that the writing style and narrators voice at the beginning took a bit for me to get into the flow of. We jump into the story in the middle of Anya and Zac’s life so we are doing a little bit of catching up. Once I got into the flow of the story I really enjoyed it.
One thing I liked a lot was how messy and real all the characters felt. They felt like real people with pasts and passions and flaws. I really enjoyed how healthy the relationships were. Though they had flaws and issues, they did their best to be open about them and support one another through whatever the issue is to come out with a better understanding of each other at the end.
This is definitely an unconventional love story but I love how honest and real it felt. I also really enjoyed how mental health and addiction was discussed. There is significant discussion about addiction and alcohol abuse, but I loved how it was discussed not as a horrible thing experienced, but something that can be managed and worked through when there is support, love, and understanding surrounding that. I think overall I really enjoyed how this story went and ended. It just felt so real and honest. It wasn’t all perfect and it was messy and complicated, but that’s how life really is, so I enjoyed that a lot.
Rating: 4/5 stars